the words in between

I miss my tigger and his new owner. only he doesn't know it.
I miss the times when we could share everything.
but now, i have to decide between which i can tell you and which i should not because i don't wanna hurt your feelings.
I miss the times where we would just sit quietly next to each other and not say a word simply because i was too shy to say anything and i didn't wanna make a fool of myself.

if only time could go back. I'd definitely make a change.

I realized every time i talk to you, i end up arguing with you or I'll get upset over little things.
I realized that i wanted a lot of things from you that because i didn't feel like i was getting it, i end up being upset and arguing with you.
I wished that you be soo much for me that i never actually realized what i could be for you.
and like you said, yes i was being selfish.
I live in my perfect little world where you are what i want you to be.

being the girl in the family is really hard.
and at a very young age, i was always told that men are all the same.
I was brought up with a mind set of never to get married because you'll have a man like your father after 40 years of marriage.
and when i actually did fell in love, i wanted to prove that whatever i was told and taught was wrong.
but until i live through out 40 years of marriage, i wont know.
i don't know if it was the right decision or not but i definitely know that i didn't regret it.
40 years is too long to think about. I'm not even sure about 40 months for that matter.

I'm not saying sorry this time because you've heard enough.
I don't know if a change will happen or not. but until it does, i live in my four wall's world.
I am alone and i don't know if you'll be comfortable with it.
and maybe, i just don't know how to open up to you anymore.

When the silence gets too loud, and I really start to miss everyone, I tell myself the same thing.
I can't see you, but I know you're there.
-Haley James Scott-