within closed doors

“Isn’t it amazing how much you can keep something bottled up inside of you? And what’s even more amazing is how you can just walk around and no one would have any idea.”

puzzle muzzle

Its the first week of my 2 months holidays. been staying at home, unpacking my stuff and tidying up my super messy room.

November started off pretty bad. I've been pretty caught with my life's mess lately. raging anger, dreary drama, gloomy emotions. seems somewhat messed up.
I need a breakaway or ice-cream would do too. December is an alluring month and I cant wait.
And for everything that's in between it, I'll keep myself occupied to forget the mess that came.
I'm done trying to un-mess the mess I made.

“Sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes you’ll find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. At times you can absolutely love a person, all the while wanting to hate them. Life comes without guarantees, except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance your eyes, and falling in love will change your life.”

-ifwordscankill-

ps: i deleted the last post simply because i couldn't continue with it. *ooppsie*

sorry.

I used to have 3 cats.
not too long ago, 1 of them got took away. so i lost it.
I'm left 2. but now, I'm on the verge of losing another one too or maybe i already have.

to the kucing,
I'm sorry if i made you upset.
I'm sorry if what i said had hurt you one way or another.
I'm sorry if i made you feel that what ever you did it wasn't good enough.
I'm sorry that you tried so hard but didn't get anything in return.
I am truly sorry for everything.

perhaps letting you go is a better choice. you definitely deserve soo much better.
you definitely deserve to be happy.

Life's too short, to fight, to be miserable, to let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.
-Peyton Sawyer-

spots

tonight feels a little different than the others.
its feels rather empty. perhaps its about knowing something's missing.
or maybe knowing that some things are not gonna be there anymore sooner or later.
it changes everything. and for everything in between; it hurts one way or another.

the 15th day

when a wash of moonlight glides over the shady greens;
when a cup of fragrant tea nourishes our heart and soul;
-in between longing and reuniting, we celebrate the wonders of the autumnal full moon.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival.

intuition

"Blessed are the hearts that can bend. They shall never be broken." But I wonder.... If there's no breaking, then there's no healing. And if there's no healing, then there is no learning. And if there's no learning, then there's no struggle. But the struggle is a part of life, So must all hearts be broken ?

-Lucas Scott-

i had mine. what about you?

pocket full of dates

sudden disappearance from my blog made me wonder if i should continue with it.
I'm having second thoughts now about keeping this space up.
but until I've decided, I'll try my level best to keep it updated. I know I've been slacking on my posts. forgive me.


so, my 19th just passed bout 3 days ago. had a little gathering with family and friends just to remember the day and the date.
well, 20.09.2009 ain't gonna come around again. so, its a once in a lifetime thingy I've get in this life. I've also learned a life lesson on the day but will not disclose it here for personal reasons.

my birthday cupcakes =D

as on going bout the updates in my life? one word. wait, no two words ; nothing much.
yes, cause I'm that lame and boring.

Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That's just the way it is.
But for the most part, you get what you give.

Someone once said; 'It’s the good girls who keep diaries. The bad girls never have the time.
Me? I just wanna live a life I’m gonna remember. Even if I don’t write it down.