here comes goodbye

here i am again. writing.
i should really learn to be consistent with my posting. forgive me.

anyways, feeling bittersweet right now.
i dont know what i should feel anymore.
upset? angry? regret? happy? relieved?
i really dont know. my feelings is pretty mixed up right now.
i dont even know what i should do.
should i still talk to him? should i avoid him? should i still care about him?
but he already has a girl. which is way better than me. so i guess i'm not really need anymore.

i guess the biggest love of all one can give is that seeing the person you love be happy with someone even when that someone is not you.
its not easy for sure. but that's the only thing i can do.
be happy for them.

and to you, i dont know if you'll ever read this but if you do, here's to you:
i can only apologize for everything that has happen.
i wish i was the one who could be there for you when you were depressed,upset and lost.
but i lost my chance and you moved on.
i will no longer bear hopes of us anymore, neither will i still dream of a future with you (although i really wish so)
letting go is never easy but i'm gonna try. i might fall and break.
and it hurts inside, seeing you be happy with another a girl but its better to have one person get hurt than both or all three of us.
you were amazing, everything i wished for but i guess i wasn't appreciative enough of you.
i wish you all the best in your future. you'll achieve great things someday.
dont let the small challenges and hurdles bring you down as they only make you stronger.
i will always pray the best for you. :)
and i know you hate goodbyes but this is for real.

goodbye, lee tzelih.
please remember to always stay amazing and never once doubt yourself.



pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel, like your nothing;
you are perfect to me.
pretty pretty please, dont you ever ever feel like you're less than, less than perfect
-pink; perfect-