one chance.

second chances don't actually come to me.
i messed up once. and that's all i got.
one shot at everything.
and if i fall at that one shot. i fall alone.
and if i die with one shot. i die alone too.
one chance at life.

i guess people think i don't deserve a second chance.
i don't deserve a chance to make things right.
makes the stakes much higher.

if only i was suicidal, I'd write my last note for everyone. mailed it, say my goodbyes and be thankful.
if only i was suicidal.